I think I over did my make-up.  

But I never feel like I look 20. I always feel like I look 15 and heavy make-up is the only way to make myself look my age. Its so frustrating when I see girls who are 16, 17, 18 and they look and act like they are 23 or something. I always feel immature, even more so compared to someone like that.

And no matter what hair cut I get, or make-up or clothes I put on, I don’t think I ever look like I feel I should.

Ughghg…Lots of rants lately.